Nothingness

I want people to love me for my nothingness – and I don’t mean that in a selfish way, like I won’t offer anything, but in a “nothing special” sense. I want them to love me despite the fact that I’m not the easiest person to hang out with because I am “boring”, “serious” and “too cautious.” I want them to love me despite the fact that whatever skills I have, they aren’t all that great. I want them to love me for what is nothing to them but it’s something to me, because that’s all I have to offer. I basically want to be enough. And I wish I didn’t have to constantly seek validation or to prove my worth to the wrong people.

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2 thoughts on “Nothingness

  1. Cristy,we all constantly feel what you feel.
    I’m sure you will draw strength from these struggles and emerge wiser,stronger and more in touch with yourself.

    “…and the times that we were happy,were the times we never tried…..”
    Jackson Browne.

    More power to you!

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