I want people to love me for my nothingness – and I don’t mean that in a selfish way, like I won’t offer anything, but in a “nothing special” sense. I want them to love me despite the fact that I’m not the easiest person to hang out with because I am “boring”, “serious” and “too cautious.” I want them to love me despite the fact that whatever skills I have, they aren’t all that great. I want them to love me for what is nothing to them but it’s something to me, because that’s all I have to offer. I basically want to be enough. And I wish I didn’t have to constantly seek validation or to prove my worth to the wrong people.