The end of Phase 1

Hi guys! So after working out with HIIT workouts for a month (three to four times a week), I thought it’d be appropriate to mention what results I got out of it.

Truth be told, I am slightly bumped that I do not see my abs forming yet. I suppose it’s still covered in a layer of stubborn belly fat. Unfortunately my stubborn fats are from the guts, the hardest to burn. Though I do feel stronger and more toned (specifically my arms and legs). I know my endurance has definitely improved from when I first started out. Remember that crazy intense workout I did? Yup, click the link if you need to refresh your memory. I was only able to complete 4 rounds in an hour and a half, but by the end of this 1 month of intense workouts, I managed to complete all 5 rounds in an hour and 2 mins. So I know for a fact that my endurance has definitely improved. Though my patience is wearing thin. I know it’s just been a month but I am wondering why the body fat percentage has not decreased and why the muscle percentage remains stagnant. In truth, I have been eating clean and healthy as much as possible, though there were some days (like maybe 2-3 days in a month) where I have indulged a little bit more. Even if the stubborn belly fats in my tummy area didn’t decrease so much, I would have been comforted if the fat percentage in my body dropped. The only consultation I get out of this is the fact that my endurance has improved greatly. So I decided to do some research and came across this thing called ‘MAX Workouts‘.

If you click on the link, you’d find out the 6 mistakes when working out according to Shin Ohtake. Watch this video for a more detailed explanation by him. That link is for the ladies, this is the one for the gents. Be warned, the video is very lengthy and wordy, but very detailed, very accurate and very informative. If you are too lazy to watch the whole thing, here’s some of the things that caught my attention from the video.

If you’ve been hitting the treadmill, bike or elliptical thinking that you’ll burn fat and get trim. Well, I gotta tell you, you’re putting in a whole lot of effort for not a lot of results. The truth is, doing long, moderate cardio keeps you flabby, weak and prone to injury. And when I say long hours of cardio, I’m not talking about hours and hours of cardio like training for a marathon, but just your average 45-60 mins cardio routine that most people do few times a week – perhaps including yourself. Here’s the thing, long cardio eats away your muscle tone. And since muscle increases metabolism, you’re losing your body’s most efficient fat burner. In fact, your muscle burn 3 times more calories than fat. And so, the less muscle you have, the less calories you’ll burn and more fat you retain. Not to mention, popular cardio activities like running, causes you to pound the pavement over and over again, putting way too much stress on your joints, a surefire way to get injured. I’m not saying don’t do cardio, infact, cardio is a great way to burn fat but only if you do it right. When you do cardio the right way, it tricks your body into naturally producing a flood of fat-burning hormones and saves you from putting unnecessary stress on your joints so you don’t get injured. So the most effective way to perform cardio is with Short, High-Intensity Intervals. These cardio workouts multiply your calorie burn in half the time because it triggers your anaerobic metabolism which skyrockets your heart rate and melts away your fat without eating away your muscle tone. In fact, Short, High-Intensity Interval cardio is so effective that you’ll keep burning calories around the clock up to 48 hours AFTER your workout is over. How can that be? Because it elicits a powerful physiological effect known as EPOC (a.k.a “The After Burn”). Let me explain, EPOC is a scientific term used to measure your body’s rate of oxygen intake following a high-intensity activity and the higher the intensity of the activity, the more oxygen and energy are needed to restore your body. As a result, your body continues to burn calories for up to 48 hours after the workout even while you sleep! And here’s the real kicker, guess where those calories come from? Your stubborn fat.

You see.. one of the biggest mistakes people make, is that they focus on the number of calories they burn during the workout so they work out longer to try and burn more calories and that’s where they go wrong. You simply cannot workout long enough to equal the amount of calories you can burn with the After Burn effect. The bottom line, you need to focus on the amount of calories you burn AFTER the workout.. NOT during. And that means, it’s the quality of the workouts NOT the quantity that determine how much calories and fat you burn. Fitness is INTENSITY dependent NOT time dependent. So you see, the secret to shrinking your waistline and getting rid of belly fat permanently is NOT to workout longer. You just need to know how to workout smarter by doing shorter, high-intensity workouts and by not wasting time doing ineffective exercises. You know, like the 200 crunches and 50 side-bends you do to finish off your already lengthy workout. Well, you may not want to hear this, but those “extra” ab exercises are NOT going to get you any closer to getting washboard abs or erase that little bit of muffin top you have left. Here’s the thing, unlike trying to zap a blemish on your face, there is no such thing as a SPOT treatment when it comes to burning off fat even though your body tends to deposit more fat in certain areas as opposed to others, burning it off doesn’t work the same way. For example, if you tend to carry more weight in your hips and thighs, doing isolated exercises such as leg lifts or inner and outer thigh machines won’t help those areas slim down. These one-muscle-at-a-time isolated exercises simply don’t burn enough fat or calories which is why your trouble areas never seem to get any smaller or tighter. If you want to burn massive amounts of calories and tighten and tone your entire body, you need to do full-body functional exercises. These exercises involve your entire body and stimulate more muscle at the same time which boosts your metabolism and increases your calorie burn. Although losing weight is important, it doesn’t necessarily mean that you’re going to have a lean and fit body because if you lose muscle weight, you’re gonna end up looking soft and flabby. Losing weight is only part of the big picture, if you want to get toned and tight, you have to burn calories from fat, not muscle. Lifting weights will not make you get big, bulky muscles and look like one of those muscle-clad women on the cover of a bodybuilding magazine, not even close! Unlike men, women’s bodies don’t produce testosterone to stimulate large, bulky muscle growth. In fact, it’s so difficult to build large, bulky muscles, that you would have to use illegal substances to get that big – steroids. What you will get by lifting weights is a super lean, toned and fit body and that’s because your muscle is metabolically active which means it burns more calories. In fact, one pound of muscle can burn up to 20 calories a day. That means if you just replaced 5 pounds of fat with 5 pounds of lean muscle, you’re going to burn an extra 100 calories a day. Replacing flab with lean, tone muscle keeps your metabolism running on high (day and night!). And women who have discovered this secret have been lifting weights for years to keep the fat off and get rid of the cellulite without getting manly looking muscles. Another big mistake that prevents you from optimally burning fat and getting lean is staying in your comfort zone. We’re all creatures of habit, so we tend to gravitate towards things we’re familiar with and are used to doing but when it comes to fitness and fat loss, staying in your comfort zone and doing the same things over and over again is the quickest way to halt your progression and prevent you from burning fat and achieving your “wow” body. In fact, did you know it only takes 3 weeks for your body to adapt to a workout routine, at which point you stop getting results? If you want to get better results, you’ve got to change things up. You body needs to be constantly challenged in order to maintain your lean muscle – to keep your metabolism kicked into high gear so you can beat the fat-loss plateau, to avoid getting injured and continue burning calories.

So after watching this video by Shin Ohtake, I realised why my stubborn belly fat isn’t going away, or why my body fat percentage decreases and increases or why my body muscle mass remains stagnant – the long hours or workout, and repeating the same workout routines for more than 3 weeks. I have been losing my muscle and fat, and not burning the stubborn belly fats from the guts. If you ask me, I am pretty sick of not seeing any real changes to my body.

I have tried working out and eating clean and the results are very, very slow and very little. I was honestly tempted to try out that colon detox tea that girls are so fascinated by – Skinny Mint Tea – because I hear it reduces bloating but after having read reviews, I have realised that this product is just a quick fix solution that doesn’t do much changes to benefit your body. All it does is cleanse the colon which takes away necessary fluids from it which may cause water retention which is not what you want. You want to lose weight and get in shape the right way.

Herbalife is my go to for maintaining a healthy diet. I actually hate the word “diet” because it comes with such negative connotations. I prefer using the word “lifestyle”. Look, I am not anorexic, bulimic, obsessive or whatever, I am just keen on wanting to get fit and toned and I am only frustrated because I have been working hard to reach those goals only to find that my body looks the same. I do not want that toned body to show it off to anyone, this is something I am doing for myself. What Herbalife has provided for me are proper nutrients with low calories in each meal that aids in the progression of weight loss but it is not a quick fix solution. Exercise is a necessary part of that equation. Of course, sometimes it gets really tiring to drink the shakes for each meal, so at I replace two meals instead. A shake for breakfast is necessary for me as it boosts my energy. Also, my digestion has improved. When replacing the meal, choose healthy options. I would recommend Shin Ohtake’s program as he provides proper dieting in it as well. 

In case you are wondering why I want to lose weight when I am not fat to begin with, it’s because I want to lose weight from the fats only to gain it back with muscle weight. Makes sense now? I am not crazy about being skinny, that isn’t even my aim. My aim is to get fit, lean and toned. So despite feeling discouraged by what I attempted with creating Phase 1 of my own workout program, I am also excited to try MAX workouts and after 3 months, I will provide a review of it, so stay tuned.

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I’m not a chef, not yet a cook.

Most of my loved ones, those close to me would know that I do not cook. I bake, but it’s rare to see me cook. I’m quite a loser when it comes to it actually, I (shamefully admitting) that I have to go on YouTube sometimes to see how certain vegetables are sliced and washed, or how they should be cooked. Though I took Food and Nutrition in Secondary School, cooking was never really my forte. I was always a better baker. For the longest time now, I told myself I have to try cooking something. I am 22 and I cannot deny that I am growing older and I can’t always depend on my family to do things for me. So as you guys know, Pinterest is extremely addictive. I have been putting it to good use, finding healthy, clean eating and simple recipes to try out. Hence, I would like to share them.

The first – Baked Salmon. Click on the link to get the recipe.

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I love this recipe a lot because it’s really that easy, and it’s to my advantage because it involves baking (Yay!). I realised that I love my salmon baked instead of panfried. I admit, when it is panfried, the salmon skin comes out really crispy and good but when it is baked, it is more tender. It’s soft and light. The little bit of lemon really does the trick as it seeps into the salmon flesh and gives it that extra taste. For salmon lovers and losers in the kitchen, like myself, this recipe is definitely worth trying it out. It’s simple and delicious, not to mention – healthy.

The second was a Fathers’ Day breakfast special – Apple Cinnamon Pancakes. Likewise, click on the link for the recipe.

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To be very honest, I had some trouble with this recipe. I have made pancakes before, but the batter has always been the pre-made ones in the box. This time, I decided I would like to make them from scratch and while doing so, add in a little something special yet healthy for my dad. My dad loves the pancakes at Cedele, to be precise, either the Caramelised Banana Pancakes or the Apple Cinnamon Pancakes. Cedele makes really good pancakes, I love that place. I can’t emphasise enough how much I really love dining there – it’s organic, free flow of bread (with olive oil), good food, good tea. I mean what’s not to love?

So while making these pancakes, I followed the recipe exactly. Here’s another flaw of mine, I am not an improvisor by nature, that’s my sister. I’m more of a planner and someone who likes to stick to plans. I’m a perfectionist that way where everything has to be detailed and precise. So this flaw of mine really worked against me for this one because I added 1 cup of Apple Cider as suggested and it turned out so sour. I had this gut feeling I shouldn’t have followed but you know, that flaw of mine just told me otherwise. End result – regret. I threw the whole batter away, yeah I felt bad for wasting ingredients but no way in hell was I gonna serve my dad sour tasting pancakes. So I tried modifying it. Took away the Apple Cider, and added water instead to make it runny and smooth.

The same happened for the Apple Cinnamon. Thank God Tita woke up in time and warned me not to follow the recipe exactly and to keep testing the taste to know when enough is really enough. I did what she told me and I thank God I did not put in that much Apple Cider for the Apple Cinnamon. Now I am seriously wondering if the person meant another type of Apple Cider, but Apple Cider in cooking refers to Apple Cider Vinegar right?? Oh God, I am a loser. Haha

Okay, so through slight modifications I made to the original recipe, the pancakes turned out alright! They were healthy too! Of course it can’t compete with Cedele’s or the original post/recipe, but good enough for me is enough right now. *chuckles

The third dish I’ve prepared in the past couple of days is Baked Eggs Brunch.

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They say those in relationships tend to have busier weekends. Truth (somewhat). My weekends are for my family and for Marion, normally Saturdays would be for Marion and Sundays for my family. But this week, Sunday was my time with Marion despite it being Fathers’ Day, because my family flew off on Sunday so I used the Saturday to spend time with them instead. As you’ve read from my previous blog post, Marion and I have a very bad habit of spending so much money on food, and they aren’t the most healthiest of choices. So I proposed that we make brunch together instead on Sunday and that we make a healthy one. Indeed this Baked Eggs Brunch was very healthy. We made an extra serving for my sister too.

Thank God Marion was helping me with this. I am a total loser when it comes to cutting veggies and fruits, yeah I know, I am that bad. :/ But I am learning slowly! It’s alright, I shall pat myself on the back because mistakes are only proof that I tried and will get there one day. This recipe called for Leeks, Onions and Sundried Tomatoes. Ours turned out pretty decent though if we could have improved it in anyway, we would have bought proper leeks and added more of that goodness, as well as Onions. I bought Chinese Leeks and it turned out too little so we thought we would just cut one onion to even it out with the leek but little did we know that when fry it, it would be too little in proportion with the Baby Spinach and Sundried Tomatoes. So in future, we would cut more of those. The Sundried Tomatoes were also very overwhelming in taste, so next time, we will add less of that and chop them up in to way smaller pieces. But overall, I would say it was a relatively good attempt, and it was also fun cooking alongside my partner.

The last dish I tried this week is Tuna Stuffed Avocados.

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Alright, as you guys know, I have been trying to eat healthier and cleaner meals to keep up with this healthy lifestyle I am adopting. Substituting my meals with Herbalife Shakes makes it easy for me but as I recently caught the flu bug from the humidity of Singapore’s weather, I caught the whole package – flu, sorethroat and cough. It makes it difficult for me to have me shakes as I usually do because the Formula 1 powder can’t be mixed with hot liquids and I can’t drink cold liquids. Of course, the other solution is to drink it with water but I refuse to torture myself that way because I will admit, the powder with water alone is not tasty at all.

So I decided to try making something with the avocados we just bought, since I can’t use them in my shake as originally intended, and I don’t want them going bad. This recipe is really easy too though I think this time, I did it with a lot of guesses and estimation.

So it’s one whole avocado sliced in half. Take out the avocado flesh from the shell and keep the shells aside. Dice the Avocado Flesh. Dice a whole tomato and a whole hard boiled egg. Mix them all together with 1/2 a can of Tuna (in olive oil would be best), and a squeeze of lime. Add in cilantro, chopped. Taste it along the way to see how much is needed. I added a little bit of chilli powder to give it some kick and a pinch of salt. It’s that easy.

So you see, I’m not really cooking but I am making something. It’s fairly easy and nutritious too. I’ll get to cooking more complicated stuff in the future when my skills improve slowly. If I have to rate myself, I’m definitely on a low level of Beginners. But I’m pretty pleased with myself because this is that start and I would have never imagined myself preparing meals for others, much less myself. 🙂

Day 1, PHASE 1.

So today, I tried out Skinnymom’s Calorie Torching Roundbased workout. The one I chose to do today is 5 rounds of 10 Pushups, 20 Squats, 30 Burpees, 40 Lunges (2o each leg) and 50 Mountainclimbers (50 each side, 100 in total). It says here that this workout will only take 2o mins but for those of you who aren’t as fit yet, like myself, well you’re probably gonna take an hour and a half (or more) to complete all 5 rounds. I could only manage 4 rounds in an hour and a half, with long pauses in between sets. Hopefully I’ll build enough endurance one day to complete all 5 rounds in that time I took to do 4 rounds, and the ultimate goal is to complete 5 rounds in 20 minutes with proper Pushups, Burpees with Pushups + jumps in the air.

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Previously, when I planned for my workouts, I was obsessed with getting toner by the time my Summer break ends – which is August. I started assigning each day of the week to work on the different areas of my body. For example – Monday would be arms day, Tuesday – Legs day etc. However, after reading Georgina Poh’s (if you haven’t heard of her, she’s quite a popular fitness person in Singapore) post on insta, she said rest days are also very important for the body as we must be careful not to overwork the body, the maximum amount of days to workout should be 4 times a week. Hence, I’ve realised that the way I planned my workouts before were wrong. Furthermore, if I keep doing abs workouts, I will only grow those abs under the layer of fats on my stomach. My core has to be strengthened first and as most already know, growing abs start in the kitchen. The food we eat plays a huge part in reaching those goals. It is not alright to work hard just to put those calories back in your body. The goals we have has to be realistic as well and from there, we can start to plan how to reach them. For instance, thigh gaps. Not every women can have that thigh gap they so obsessively desire. If they feel that they are flabby on the thighs, do not work to get a thigh gap, instead work to getting them toned. Legs are not meant to look like twigs, they need muscle.

With all the information I have gathered from various fitness inspirations – Brooke from Skinnymom and Georgina Poh, to be exact, I have decided to plan my workouts and goals more realistically. As I cannot afford a personal trainer cause they’re pretty expensive, I have planned my workouts to target various goals. While planning them, I am aware that getting toned will take a lot of hard work, discipline and time. On top of it all, it takes commitment to your body. Hence, the workouts I have planned for myself span across a long period of time. I believe the level of fitness I am on would be would be a high level of Beginner, not enough to call it Intermediate.  But to tone up, I would need to get my fitness level higher, as such, I got to improve my strength and endurance.

The reason why this is titled PHASE 1 is because it means – Endurance training in my workout plan. The duration for this workout will be 4 weeks, and it comprises of the various calorie torching workouts in Skinnymom’s website (refer to link above) so that my workouts do not become boring and dreadful, cause you know, I tend to dread repetitive workouts. I have set them for thrice a week, alternate days. On Saturdays, I plan to go on trail runs, but that will be after I get my trail running shoes. For now, I shall just go for road runs or park runs. For the runs – I am going to slowly work my way to running a 10km, starting with 3km to 5km to 7km and eventually 10km. If I get bored along the way, I shall do interval runs – sprints and jogs. Once the 4 weeks is up, I will move on to higher intensity endurance training, PHASE 2. The duration I have set for that workout is 8 weeks. This is to ensure my form, stamina, endurance and strength will be able to take the workouts I have planned to begin toning the body.

As I would like to tone all areas of my body, I have decided to work on them individually first instead of multitasking it. I think my core needs the extra attention and focus and I have marked that as PHASE 3 which will be a total of 20 weeks (5 months). The core is an important muscle because it ensures proper structure and since my core is not as strong as I would like to be, I have set 3 times a week for 1 month to strengthen the muscle, not yet to tone, because I have to get rid of the fats first. Once my core is strengthened, I will begin doing core workouts that will build from low intensity to higher intensity over that period of time. I have not planned for the other phases of my workout yet as I would like to see how this turns out first. But the basic sketch of it is that the following phases would be to work the rest of the body parts separately.

Okay I am no fitness expert, and I do not really know if the workout I have planned will prove effective yet but I would rather try, experiment, tweak than to not do anything at all. People who complain about their bodies but don’t do anything to help themselves are the worst so I will not fall prey to that because I know what it’s like to whine and complain but yet, filling my body with more junk. Trust me, it makes you feel worse, especially when you see people around you working towards similar goals. The goals I have set for myself, though similar to most, are custom for only me. The only person I have to prove myself to, is myself. I know I will have a pool of encouragers and also doubters along the way but at the end of the day, this is my race to run, my goal to achieve. I will only have myself to be responsible to. As such, the workouts I have planned for myself are custom for only me although inspired by mostly Skinnymom’s website. Everyone’s body type is different, as such some may need a longer or shorter amount of time as I do and their workouts would then be different from mine. This is just to share how I have planned to carry this out. My worry right now is when my summerbreak ends because school really does take up alot of my time during seasons and to dedicate even an hour to working out can be slightly difficult. Hence, the discipline has to start now before the break ends so that this will eventually become a habit.

I do not believe in starvation or unrealistic calorie counting as diets. A food may contain low calories but may not provide the proper nutrients for your body. Starvation just makes you store more fat to be consumed later as your body will start noticing that it’s getting a lack of nourishment. Furthermore, it decreases metabolism as your body will begin to conserve energy once in starvation mode. As a result, lethargy happens. After you begin to eat again, your metabolism rate will start burning calories at a much slower rate. The first few months of this journey is of extreme importance to maintain discipline, especially in the kitchen. As for me, I thank God for my Herbalife shakes. I substitute two of my meals every day with a shake, sometimes all three meals. The shake is low in calories (if you must know), very filling, provides all the nutrients your body needs, and delicious (if you are creative enough). I blend mine with a variety of fruits each time. But I am not here to sell the idea of Herbalife shakes to anyone, I am a huge supporter and I love the products. The two meals I substitute my shakes with are breakfast and dinner. For lunch, I try to eat clean as much as possible. The idea of a diet is to ensure you eat healthy and eat smart. You need to start being aware of when you’re eating because you’re hungry and when you’re eating for fun or out of boredom. If you feel hungry even after lunch, have healthy snacks like nuts or research healthy snack recipes to make on your own.

Eating clean, or eating healthy does not mean you can’t enjoy your food. There are many recipes on the net that are clean, healthy, nutritious and delicious. Try them out, you’ll be amazed. Usually before and after my workouts, I drink my Herbalife shake as it is lighter compared to food and provides me with adequate energy to start working out. I drink them after for recovery and storage as well. For those who do not have Protein shakes, you can also have healthy snacks before working out, but keep it light for obvious reasons. Eating food that are high in protein after a workout is good for the same reason of recovery and storage.

So today after my workout, I was too lazy to make my shake. I had this instead – Strawberry Yogurt, with a little bit of milk and 2 scoops of Herbalife Formula 1 Vanilla Powder, blended and frozen overnight. Incase shakes get boring, there are more ways to introduce the Formula 1 powder into food. For me, I decided to make it into an ice-cream

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Hydrating yourself is also very important. I have recently started drinking 3 litres of water a day. At the very least, 2 litres when I am out and have no access to a water source to refill my bottle. Water aids in the diet and it has an awesome effect to your skin. You can tell the difference in a month if you keep this up.

Well, I’m just sharing a little bit of my journey to get fit and the steps I have taken. For those who read my blog or stumble upon it, I hope this inspires you.

Eat Clean, Train Dirty.

So I’ve always been very on and off about this lifestyle. I always start out strong and motivated then as soon as school resumes, I get really tired from the late nights of working my ass off and writing essays, that I tell myself I really do have a legit excuse not to exercise.

And I have noticed a pattern – whenever I do my workouts consistently in a week, I tend to eat clean because I worked hard to burn all that calories, to tone the muscles and I’m not about to put all that greasy junk back in (except maybe when I really crave them or when it’s my birthday). Since I am having this wonderful 3 months break before my third and final year in Lasalle resumes, I have carefully planned on what I should do to make full use of this wonderful break. Yes, I am going to get fit.

I must admit, I have always admired people with that kind of determination and always wished I could have more discipline. It’s honestly difficult to eat clean, train dirty when you’re in a relationship unless your partner is a cardio bunny. Well let’s just say my partner is athletic and fit, but he eats junk and enjoys his food. He’s lucky though – he doesn’t gain weight that easily. I, on the other hand, have to watch what I eat. I have curvy woman problems – particularly from waist down. I was born with big hips and I will admit, I do like my own butt because it’s toned. Unfortunately, I am not busty so I do have to work really hard to tone my body to get it into the shape I want. No, I am not doing this for anyone, I am doing this for myself, not out of pure vanity though.

So, today marks the second day of this lifestyle I am trying to adopt and hopefully sustain when school resumes. Yesterday, I worked on toning my legs as I am losing the muscle already (I can feel it) and it makes me sad because I have always prided in the fact I have nice legs and butt. I will shamelessly tell you that and not hide what I think because I see no reason in pretending. But of course, the rest of the world are entitled to their own opinions, it’s mine that matters after all. I ran 3km yesterday as well. I am taking this really slow and steady to get the form of these work out routines right first then I will start focusing on the reps. I started drinking my Herbalife Formula 1 shakes as well too for my Breakfast and Lunch and I must say, my body feels better already. I can literally feel all the toxins being flushed out of my body. I feel more awake, more energised, fitter and stronger. Today, I will be doing butt toning exercises followed by 3o mins of cardio.

To note, Saturdays are my days with Marion and we normally spend time watching Breaking Bad together or a film. But since we’re done with Breaking Bad (good series by the way), we’re probably gonna start watching films again. Also, during those times, we normally snack and eat so much junk – I am talking about Cheetos and Ben and Jerry’s here. But after my birthday week, I am putting an end to this. He told me he will gladly work out with me now on Saturdays and then we can watch films together after. If we feel like snacking – guess what? I have already started compiling healthier snack recipes to munch on. I have also started drinking 3 litres of water a day because God knows I am lazy to drink water. So here’s to my (hopefully) new lifestyle change.

I know some people do actually read my blog when they stumble upon it and judge my life whenever possible. I guess this is normal behaviour for people who have nothing better to do than discuss my life or maybe it’s the curiousity – whichever. I can’t tell you I am not affected when they do and act all tough and shit because I do get emotionally upset or angry when I find out about such. But I am learning to be nonchalant about these things and to focus on the goals in my life. I have been told that the people who try to bring you down and the people who help you up are both to be thanked for the successes in our lives so I guess if anyone here is going to judge me for wanting to adopt this lifestyle and tell me I can’t do it, I will be thanking you guys soon, because I will get there, then you may proceed to feel sorry for yourself and magnifying everything that is wrong about me to make yourselves feel good. Feast your thoughts and energy on that – tell me how that works out for you. And for those who are encouraging me in taking up this challenge to adopt this new lifestyle change, thanks for all the encouragement and the motivation to keep going.